And you get a big rejection of a piece in an email while together you’re watching The Colbert Report, so you go into the kitchen and cry like a baby, and say “Nothing,” when your husband asks what’s wrong, and you open some more wine because that seems like the best you could do right now, and you’re still crying looking at the traffic on the street below and your own reflection in the window with the glittering lights of downtown in the distance, and you’re surprised you’re crying the kind of crying where words don’t come out, and you wonder what the hell you were thinking and why even bother, and that maybe you should just fuck the idea of being a writer because, really, the past 20 years should have told you something unless you’re just dense, which maybe you are, and you think, shit, I have to make lunches for tomorrow and check on that playdate and confirm the sitters for the rest of the week, and you’re grateful the wine is cold, and you’ll probably get over this because there’s really no alternative is there but to fucking forget it, and tomorrow is another day with the computer and the kids and getting back to friends about plans for rescheduling dinner soon, so be sure to charge your phone overnight, maybe you shut down Word, and watch the lights in the distance for a little longer, the plane flashing by, the stars that flicker.
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